I'm an aspiring fantasy writer, trying to finish 774920 novels at once. I'll do all of my brooding right here from now on.
My muze is music, whether it's K-pop, J-pop, anime themes or Lord of the Rings soundtracks. (Yeah, I know: a weird combination)
I'm also TRYING to teach myself Japanese (Korean is next), but that's not really going so well because of school and everything. I'll tackle it someday though.
My favourite writers are David Gemmell, J.V. Jones, Holly Lisle, J.R.R. Tolkien, Glen Cook and James Barclay. I't's my dream to adopt.
I've decided to try out Wordpress, to see which blogging platform I like the most...so I won't be active here for a while. I won't be gone forever...and even if I'm gonna be, you'll be the first to know.
Here's my wordpress blog: http://lonewolfwhistlinginthedark.wordpress.com/
So remember my last post about my goals for the future? Well, here a little something I found while digging in my old writings. This is something I just wrote for myself when I was 16. Funny thing is not much has changed. Only the fact that I've decided Japan is my future home, I've given up on an acting career and am focusing on one in writing and that I have no choice but to marry, if I want to adopt from Asia.
Without much further ado, here's 'How I Picture My Future Life To Be' by M.D. Tjong Ayong:
Ever since I was a little girl, I’ve been dreaming about my perfect future. It was always crystal clear to me: I knew exactly how I wanted it. Of course, it was a little surreal, but you can’t stop a girl from dreaming. My dream future has not quite changed over the years; the important things are still the same.
Unlike most girls, I never dreamed of a great and fairytale-like wedding. I’ve always detested that subject. Every girl wanted a wedding, with a beautiful princess wedding dress; so it was only natural for me not to want it. I usually didn’t go with the flow. I always said to myself: ‘I don’t have to get married. What’s the use? It’s going to cost you a lot of money and you’ll be showing of this diamond ring, so what? It’s no guarantee that the relationship’s going to last! You could just as well move in together. It’s the same thing; the only thing that’s different is that you call the guy your boyfriend and not your husband!’
Even now I think that’s the absolute and only truth.
I also had a strong opinion about babies. I never wanted any. Not of my own flesh and blood, that is. I’ve always wanted to adopt, ever since I was old enough to fully understand what that meant. I wanted to adopt before Angelina Jolie adopted sweet, little Maddox, and before other actresses followed her example. I wanted it before it became a rage in Hollywood! And I always will, there’s no doubt about that.
But the most astounding dream I’ve always had, is being a single mom! I’ve always pictured myself as a single mom, I don’t know why. It’s probably because my own mother was one and I saw how strong she was. I wasn’t always certain about what was going to be my occupation, what was going to be my profession. I began with wanting to be a writer, and then I switched to actress, cartoonist, teacher and zoologist. Now I am back at wanting to be an actress and a writer.
But enough with the long introduction; let me tell you how I picture my future life to be. Because now, at the age of sixteen, I’ve had a lot of time to think about what I want in and from life. Now’s the time to explain:
From where I stand now in life, I know one thing for sure: I want a simple yet varied life. When I think about the future, I see myself making a living with what I love to do. Writing. Why writing? Because that’s a safer option than acting.
I want to be able to support myself without any help from others, whatsoever. If I’m a (preferably famous) writer, I can do everything in my own time. Of course; if acting is another possibility, I’d choose both. I could be the main character in a movie that’d be based on my own book!
Furthermore, I’d like to adopt two Asian children, maybe even three. I’d like to adopt from Japan, South Korea or China. But three certainly is the limit. I think that in the end, I will only adopt two kids, and maybe get one of my own. Yet that isn’t definite!
I never wanted kids of my own, but maybe I’ll want them later. You never know about these things.
I’m not quite sure if I want to be a single mom. It seems fun to me; raising my two (or three) children alone, with no one who tells me what to do. But I wouldn’t mind if I had a boyfriend. It could be fun too! And it would be easier sometimes, if for some reason I’d have a writer’s block and the children couldn’t be quiet. He could take them outside and play baseball with them or something. And about marriage? Well, it still isn’t a must. At least not to me. If my boyfriend really wanted to get married, I’d probably go along with it. I don’t really care about that, but if he would be happier because of it, why not? Though, what I’m looking for is the homely-type, the one who could run the household, because I’m not that skilled when it comes to cooking, cleaning and doing the laundry.
I always pictured my house to be grand, huge, and mansion-like. A big white house, with a great Japanese garden. The interior would be Asian too; the colours would’ve to be light. Like yellows and whites. And I’d probably dedicate two rooms to my favourite movie and anime: Lord of the Rings and One Piece. I can already see the action figures and posters… I absolutely don’t want to live in Holland. Japan or South Korea could be a great option. Oh and I want a dog or three! Wolf dogs. Male ones, of course.
And don’t forget my friends! I’d like to stay as close as we are now, or better yet: closer. I can always count on them and I’d like to be there for them as well. I mean: they’d be a really good influence on my children and my life. And I’d like to be an example for their children. It would be great if our children would play together, grow up together and grow old together like we used to do.
I've decided to really start looking inside myself and figure out which of my dreams/wishes I shall pursue and how. Because you won't be able to reach all your goals in life...even if you could, you shouldn't. Because if you reach all your goals and have all you dreams come true...then what? There should always be a few dream or wishes that never came to pass - just make sure it's those little dreams and wishes you hope for, not the bigger ones.
When I'm old and grey, I don't want to look back at a life wasted or have regrets about dreams I didn't pursue. So I'm going to jot down all the things I want to accomplish in this life - no matter if they're big or small. Then I'm going to figure out how to accomplish those things, what I need to do to make my dreams and wishes come true. Because wishing on a star isn't going to help me much.
I have a big task ahead me: I need to start looking at my goals realistically and that's not something I'm very good at. So yeah, it's going to be difficult, but I'm sure it'll be worth my while. I'll let you guys know what I've decided.
So. Sungkyunkwan Scandal. It was one of the many Kdrama's I would get to someday. Main reason to watch: Yoochun. Naturally. I'm the kind of person who hates ongoing dramas, because you have to wait an entire week to watch the newest episode. I hated it with Sunao ni narenakute ( JaeJoong's drama) which I still watched. I hate it with One Piece...which I still watch. And so I hate it with Yoochun drama....and I still watch it. I know...I'm weak.
But there was a big surprise for me with Sungkyunkwan Scandal. I actually liked more actors than just Yoochun. With Sunao ni, all I cared about was JaeJoong's character. But there are several actors who stole my heart in Yoochun's drama. This is gonna be one hellavu nice drama! I'm hooked
Long time no talkies! Well, let's start this post, shall we. When all else fails, blame an evil wizard...or in any other case ME. You see, I just love how I'm always blamed for everything. And not just by people who know me, but strangers do it to me too! Somehow I'm the reason wars were fought, the word buttwipe exists and why people are late.
Yup, it's all me. I'm a baby-eating-puppy-kicking-evil-villainous-time-warping-burning-the-world-just-for-the-fun-of-it wizard. *Insert evil laugh here* My eyes shoot lightening and when I burp it thunders in Bookbookiestan. When I'm angry 883025 people end up dying horribly in their comfy chairs. It's all me. Me, me, me. I'm the reason society goes down the drain.
And people wonder why I'm so sarcastic...bordering on the edge of cynical. All this and more is thrust upon me....while other have greatness thrust upon them. Seriously people, give it a rest. I'm probably the most polite, nice and goody goody two shoes kind of gal, you're ever gonna meet. And I say this without shame.
So when things go utterly wrong and all else fails, don't blame me. Just blame the evil wizard. He won't care, that's what he's for.
So, I haven't blogged in quite a while really, sorry 'bout that. I've been really busy with work and my birthday and all that. And today was my first day back at 'school'...well, I guess when you compare it to the American or Japanese educational system, it's university. Practical university or whatever. No matter, I just call it school.
I promise to try and blog a bit more, but I don't know if it's possible. School's gonna take up a lot of my time. But look forward to more posts and embrace the randomness that is me.
Today I went to pick up a ring I'd ordered made especially for me. I was inspired by this pciture:
However I requested it to be made of only two rings and of gold, because three rings was way over my budget and I don't wear silver. I also had it engraved: A.K.T.F. All you DBSK fans out there know what this means right: Always Keep The Faith.
They had first made it out of silver - to practise - and the jeweller kept that one for herself. One of the rings wasn't just polished, it was treated with sand as to make it look like it was made of diamond. I expressed interest and she said it would only cost me ten bucks and would take half an hour. My mom would pay for it when we came back.
My mom, my little sister and I came back exactly an half hour later (we has some other things also taken care of) and suddenly the jeweller told us it was for free. Because my birthday was coming up. Isn't that sweet? I'm so happy with my new ring, it's never coming off.
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